As I continue to work on my book on friendship , a project primarily for other celibate gay/lesbian/same-sex attracted Christians, Im increasingly aware of the need to speak honestly about all the ways friendship can involve significant disappointment and struggle. Finding the appropriate way to articulate this will, I suspect, be the defining factor in whether or not this book can offer realistic hope to people.
I believe in the thesis Im arguing forin many ways, its simply my effort to expand on this post by Ron Belgau from the early days of the Spiritual Friendship blog. Gay and lesbian Christians, in and through their celibacy, are called to love, as Eve Tushnets forthcoming book puts it. We are called to something positive and hopeful, not simply to a negative renunciation. We are summoned and enabled by God to give and receive love.
And yet the danger lurking here is that Ill present friendship as a kind of panacea for how difficult sexual ascesis can be in our culture. Having trouble feeling fulfilled in celibacy? Heres a great solution to your lack of intimacy and closeness with othersits called friendship! This is the problematic message that Stephen Long over at the Sacred Tension blog has spent so much time exploring , and I think Stephen is right that there are serious problems with this approach.
Insofar as there is an answer to this problem, I suspect it lies in the recognition that friendship involves just as much of an ascetic struggle as marriage or any other form of Christian love. C. S. Lewis wrote the following about charity, but he might equally have written it of friendship: To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possible be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. The calling of friendship is, in other words, a call to pain. Joy, yes, and consolation, but not as a substitute for pain.
And not only ones own private pain. C. S. Lewis eccentric friend and fellow Inkling, Charles Williams, wrote movingly of the calling of friends to co-inhere. As Alan Jacobs explains ,
What Williams desired was to explore the most radical implications of Jesuss commands to bear one anothers burdens and weep with those who weep, rejoice with those who rejoice. The way of exchange, as he often called itdying each others life, living each others deatha kind of moral economy in which prayer and love are the currency rather than money. (Money is a medium of exchange, he writes in one of his poems.) Williams believed that if a Christian sees another person suffering, it is that Christians duty to pray to take on that suffering him- or herself: to become, in an almost literally Christ-like act, the vicarious substitute for ones neighbor.
In this picture, there is certainly a call to deep friendshipdeeper than most of us ever get around to fathoming. But it is also simultaneously, on this side of the eschaton, as much a call to desolation as consolation.
If our churches and communities learn to take friendship seriously as a genuine love in its own right worthy of honor and public recognitionas I hope they willthe result will be, I trust, a diminishment of gay Christian isolation and loneliness, but it wont mean the eradication of the cost of discipleship.
(Cross-posted at Spiritual Friendship )
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